告别纯真年代

给在悲痛、恐惧、慌乱之中的人们 

 
And now, the end is near                              现在，终点已经靠近
And so I face the final curtain                        于是我要面对最后的落幕
My friend, I'll say it clear                                我的朋友，我将会清楚的说出来
I'll state my case, of which I'm certain             我会肯定的陈述我的经历
I've lived a life that's full                                我已经度过了充实的一生
I've traveled each and every highway              我已经走过所有的每一条高速路
But more, much more than this                     但是更多，更多于此的是
I did it my way                                             我走自己的路
Regrets, I've had a few                                 后悔，我也曾有过一些
But then again, too few to mention                但是一样的是，（后悔的事情）太少不值得提起
I did what I had to do                                   我（都）是做我必须做的事情
And saw it through without exemption           回想起来也不会想去改变它
I planned each charted course                       我计划好每一次行程
Each careful step along the byway                 孤身一人在小道上时我会小心的走每一步
But more, much more than this                    但是更多，更多于此的是
I did it my way                                            我走自己的路

Yes, there were times I'm sure you knew       是的，有过那么几次，我相信你也知道
When I bit off more than I could chew           当我咬下超过我能咀嚼的分量的时候
But through it all, when there was doubt       但是这一切，当还是犹豫的时候
I ate it up and spit it out                              我毫不保留的吞了下去
I faced it all and I stood tall                          我面对一切并且昂首而立
And did it my way                                       我走自己的路
I've loved, I've laughed and cried                  我曾经爱过，我曾经笑过哭过
I've had my fill; my share of losing                我曾经心满意足，我也承受过失败
And now, as tears subside                           现在，当泪水消逝
I find it all so amusing                       我发现一切（回想起来）都（会觉得）那么有趣
To think I did all that                                   回想起我做过的一切
And may I say - not in a shy way                 我可以毫不害羞的说
"No, oh no not me,                                   “不，我不是这样，
I did it my way"                                          我走自己的路”

For what is a man, what has he got?            人是什么，他拥有过什么？
If not himself, then he has naught               如果他不拥有自身，那他就一无所有
To say the things he truly feels                   说出他真实感觉的事情
And not the words of one who kneels          而不是屈尊的言语
The record shows I took the blows              唱片记录下我已经有点上气不接下气了
And did it my way                                      我走自己的路
yes，it was my way                                    是的，这就是我的路

对我来说这是一部百看不厌的电影，英文名是The Scarlet Letter。第一次看红字还是好几年前的事了，剧情却鲜活的印在了脑海里。

绮勋是一名出色的刑警，影片一开场便是他驾车在公路上飞驰着，兴致勃勃听着歌剧，似乎非常春风得意。事实也确是如此，他有很好的前程，还有两个深爱着他的女人，一个是端庄优雅、温柔贤惠的妻子秀贤，一个是充满着诱惑力的情妇佳喜。有一天，他接到任务调查照相馆主人被杀的案件。死者的妻子庆熙有杀人的嫌疑，然而这个女人却散发着一种奇特的、颓废的魅力，让他觉得深不可测。绮勋很快陷入了对庆熙的痴迷当中。

此时，绮勋的生活出现了一些波澜。妻子秀贤怀孕了，绮勋想和情妇佳喜一刀两断，却发现自己根本无法自拔。佳喜虽然表面上华丽无比，内心却异常孤独，将绮勋的爱当作唯一的生活支柱，当绮勋提出分手时，立刻陷入了绝望和痛苦之中。而秀贤，似乎没有觉察到自己身边发生的一切，坚守着心中的秘密。

在妻子秀贤面前，绮勋是亲切的丈夫，在执行公务时，是强硬甚至带些残忍的警察，在情妇佳喜面前，他是热情似火的情人，在嫌疑犯庆熙面前，又是个暧昧的男人。然而当三名女子却都有着各自的秘密……

但给这部影片打上深深烙印的确是饰演佳喜的李恩珠，她在《红字》拍摄完成后自杀，留下用血写的简短遗书。

“爸爸、妈妈，对不起！我爱你们！我非常爱电影事业，也非常渴望演电影！现在的生活不是人过的生活！我不想怨恨任何人！” 

据说她的死是源于《红字》 的压力，也有人说是导演为了炒作逼死她的。猜测重重，但这个年轻美丽的生命再也不会回来了。很喜欢她在红字中的演出，喜欢她在影片中演唱的only when i sleep……

You're only just a dream boat
Sailing in my head
You swim my secret oceans
Of coral blue and red
Your smell is incense burning
Your touch is silken yet
It reaches through my skin
Moving from within
And clutches at my breast
CHORUS:
But it's only when I sleep
See you in my dreams
Got me spinning round and round
Turning upside down
But I only hear you breathe
Somewhere in my sleep
Got me spinning round and round
Turning upside down
But it's only when I sleep
And when I wake from slumber
Your shadow's disappeared
Your breath is just a sea mist
Surrounding my body
I'm working through the daytime
But when it's time to rest
I'm lying in my bed
Listening to my breath
Falling from the edge
But it's only when I sleep...
(Up to the sky)
(Where angels fly)
(I'll never die)
(Hawaiian high)
It's reaching through my skin
Moving from within
And clutches at my breast
(In bed I lie)
(No need to cry)
(My sleeping cry)
(Hawaiian high)

……

这是JOHN LENON离开BEATLES后的作品，如同IMAGINE一样，歌词是大野洋子所写，曲则是两人共同创作。淡淡的吉他，跟上来的是暖暖的钢琴，配上简单的歌词，特别的纯净。此刻心里很安静，也很塌实。 Oh my love,for the first time in my life,my eyes can see.I see the wind,I see the trees. Everything is clear in my heart......

Oh my love for the first time in my life
哦,我爱我的第一次生命
My eyes are wide open
我的眼睛是睁开的
Oh my lover for the first time in my life
哦,我爱人给了我第一次生命
My eyes can see
我都可以看到

I see the wind, oh I see the trees
我看到了风 , 哦,我看了的树
Everything is clear in my heart
在我的心里一切都很清楚
I see the clouds, oh I see the sky
我看见了风 哦,我看到的天空,
Everything is clear in our world
在我们的世界里一切都很清楚了

Oh my love for the first time in my life
哦,我爱我的第一次生命,
My mind is wide open
我敞开心怀,
Oh my lover for the first time in my life
哦,我爱人给了我第一次生命,
My mind can feel
我的心感受的到,

I feel the sorrow, oh I feel the dreams
我感到了悲伤, 哦 我觉得在梦里,
Everything is clear in my heart
在我心里一切都清楚了
I feel life, oh I feel love
我感受到了人生, 哦,我感受到了爱.
Everything is clear in our world
在我们的世界里一切都很清楚了

两个纯美如孩童的音乐精灵借居成人虚设，化名成Lady&bird，天马行空，奔放自由地嬉戏小小的音乐天堂中……

Bird : Lady?
Lady : Yes Bird?
Bird : It′s cold
Lady : I know
Lady : Bird... I cannot see a thing
Bird : It′s all in your mind
Lady : I′m worried
Bird : No one will come to see us
Lady : Maybe they come but we just don′t see them .What do you see?
Bird : I see what′s outside
Lady : And what exactly is outside?
Bird : It′s grown-ups
Lady : Well maybe if we scream they can hear us
Bird : Yeah, maybe we should try to scream
Lady : Ok, Bird
Lady & Bird : Heeeelp, Heeeelp .Can you hear us now ? Hello ! Help ! Hello it′s me .Hey .Can you see .Can you see me. I′m here .Nana come and take us.Hello. Are you there Hello...
Lady : I don′t think they can hear us
Bird : I can hear you lady
Bird : Do you want to come with me lady
Lady : Will you be nice to me Bird
Lady : You′re always be nice to me because you′re my friend
Bird : I try but sometimes I make mistakes
Lady : Nana says we all make mistakes
Bird : Maybe we should scream more
Lady : Yes, Bird let′s scream more
Lady & Bird : Help ! Help us ! Come on ! Help Hello ! Help !Hello ! We′re lost
Lady : I don′t think they cannot see us
Bird : Nobody likes us
Lady : But they all seem so big
Bird : Maybe we should just jump
Lady : What if we fall from the bridge and then nobody can catch us
Bird : I don′t know let′s just see what happens
Lady : Okay
Bird : Come with me
Lady : Shall we do it together
Bird : Yeah
Lady & Bird : 1 2 3....Aaaaaaah

想是累了吧
窗外的捕风已掩盖了忧伤
懒得去幻想
黑墙挺立在心门前

烟花散去
瞬间在我的眼眸自尽
空白
还是空黑

没有梦想的人是可耻的
寻觅间的
春天携着春风春雨来了
夜来风雨声
花开知多少

二十多载 活着安康地
从会做梦起
就爱上做梦的样子
清晨微微 黄昏沉沉
延续一片片潋滟的慌张

青春的痕迹在岁月中滑翔
一路微笑开怀
少年扯尽滋味愁
欢歌起舞 澈澈碧波
欣然奔放 熊熊焰火

午夜 整点
被子盖上吧
黑暗中
触摸希望中体贴的温暖

明天 明天
阳光漫溢——

      河流脉脉含情
平原上的一支粉嫩的野花
打起了瞌睡
梦见一只娉婷的白蝴蝶
在月光下疯狂跳舞

你在泼墨似的夜色里
仰着羞涩的月光迎着淡薄的风裙袂飘飘

你在我黑色的瞳仁里起航，像舞的落幕
我大声呼唤你的名字
你却背着我悄悄的远走
也没有停泊在我心仪的港湾

冬天到了吗
天空那么大，却容不下一行鸿雁
大地那么宽，却长不出一星爱情

你一个人寂寞的对我微笑，像花的绽放
你说，你在南方一个更暖的城镇等我

我能听到深爱时鲜花绽放的声音
我仿佛再次看到校园的某个角落
那条空空的长椅上你撩发的姿势

在某年某月的夏天
南方的某个城镇
在陀螺一样的飓风中静静呼吸
像个不谙世事的婴儿

飓风里，有一个天堂
天堂里，有一盏安静怜楚的目光

人们四散呼号，如鸟兽散
几年后，人们仍然怀念那场天空的气派
却听不见一个天使的哭声
天使被遗落在天堂的某个角落
怀念属于人间的岁月

我仰望着你

心开始像荒芜的土地一样龟裂
伤痕里长出一芽记忆
记忆里没有你，也没有我，只有我们

我悄悄告诉你
爱如天空之怒

记住和路一起的时光，脸上有幸福的表情……

记住那天2007年4月18日，和sherry最后一天同事。

PS:爱死此女子！我们一起流浪，我们一起变坚强！！

正闲着也是闲着..捣腾!!年前的视频..吼吼!!

从三十那天开始，便不知道这些天究竟在做什么。仿佛人生只用忙于串门，和忙于吃饭了。其实这样也挺好，一直一直热热闹闹，一直一直有好吃的在嘴边，爽也！！

情人节那天给自己买了棵含苞待放的水仙，弥补弥补失落的心情，很是喜欢这种低调且易养活的植物。在三十看到它的第一次开放，庆幸终于可以摆脱养大蒜的名声了。雪白的六片花瓣便是证据，淡黄的花蕊也是证据，整个办公室悠悠的清香更是磨灭不了的证据。那些花朵，真美！！！

初一下午给表妹拍了一组照片，然后累倒睡去。

寻

寻觅一个人，其实幸福不是别人给。
寻觅记忆中的恋爱，不过是在彼岸看花。
幸福的开始，便意味着它的结束。

 

总是错过照雪景。今年也无一例外。

本以为一切都准备妥当的，把白茫茫的一切都照下来。

居然。电池没电。我该死。

……

天，特别特别的白

城市显的干净。人也会愉快一点。

……

到办公室给相机充上电，只有拍着自己玩儿。。

today is my birthday!

happy birthday la !!

sophia!!!

 

不远处有湖水，马和鲜花~我卖掉一点不幸

去年有段时间特别喜欢到邦爱比特吃东西，不明原因的爱上她的韩国料理。

吃东西时偷偷拍的。店内规定禁止拍照。吼吼。。

T.A.T.U两个来自俄罗斯的小女生总是能给人带来力量。简单的歌词能给于听众更辽阔的想像空间。

于她们，耳熟能详的大概就是《30 minutes》拉。偶也是因为这首歌爱上她们的。"all the things she said"..随着音乐摇摆，感受活力。有劲。

 

All the things she said
All the things she said
Running through my head
Running through my head
Running through my head
All the things she said
All the things she said
Running through my head
Running through my head
All the things she said
This is not enough

I'm in serious shit, I feel totally lost
If I'm asking for help it's only because
Being with you has opened my eyes
Who could ever believe such a perfect surprise
I keep asking myself, wondering how
I keep closing my eyes but I can't block you out
I want to fly to a place where it's just you and me
Nobody else, so we can be free
Nobody else, so we can be free

……

And I'm all mixed up, feeling cornered and rushed
They say it's my fault, but I want her so much
I wanna fly her away with the sun and the rain
Covered over my face, wash away all the shame
When they stop and stare, don't worry me
Cause I'm feeling for her what she's feeling for me
I can try to pretend, I can try to forget
But it's driving me mad, going out of my head

……

Mother, looking at me
Tell me, what do you see
Yes, I've lost my mind
Daddy, looking at me
Will I ever be free
Have I crossed the line

 今天玉姐很美。Sherry很美。so am i...hehe!!

 

 

这是瑞典的乐队standfast演唱的。温柔缠绵。

后来在网上查才知道是“向左走，向右走”里的，奇怪看电影时为什么没有一点印象留下。

 

        The night has come now
　　The sun has gone to rest
　　All birds stop singing, hiding in their nest
　　
　　The stars are sparkling in the deeply sky
　　For the man in the moon hill can hear the tide inside
　　
　　Hush now baby, it's time to go to sleep
　　Mummy and Daddy have counted all the sheep
　　Hush now baby, don't you cry
　　Mummy and Daddy are always by your side
　　
　　The playground to still now
　　Shadows dance around
　　Raindrops are falling softly to the ground
　　
　　Tomorrow' s waiting for some that in her hand
　　More time to play and draw pictures in the sand
　　
　　Hush now baby, it's time to go to sleep
　　Mummy and Daddy have counted all the sheep
　　Hush now baby, don't you cry
　　Mummy and Daddy are always by your side

 

一直听齐豫的“tears”。制造感伤的音乐。由于最近接触《伦语》比较多，受儒家学说的感召，心境也平静了许多。不那么容易忧郁。

……

all alone i have started my journey
to the darkness of darkness i go
with a reason,i stopped for a moment
in this world full of pleasure so frail
town after town on i travel
pass through faces i know and know not
like a bird in flight,sometimes i topple
time and time again,just farewells

……

donde voy,donde voy
day by day,my story unfolds
solo estoy,solo estoy
all alone as the day i was born

……

till your eyes rest in mine,i shall wander
no more darkness i know and know not
for your sweetness i traded my freedom
not knowing a farewell awaits
you know,hearts can be repeatedly broken
making room for the harrows to come
along with my sorrows i buried
my tears,my smiles,your name

……

songs of lovetales i sing of no more
once again with my shadows i roam
still alone with my shadows i roam

……

接Eddie的电话是个错误..too embarrassed....算了，一切不过玩笑而已！遇见一些人不过是为了告别..time and time again,just farewells..最后依旧是独自在路上。还是那句，错过的就让他错过好了……

PS：看PC里的一大堆乱七八糟的FOTO，翻出一张偶在万圣节那天的影子，差点忘记自己的happy hours..把它放到这里，以防遗忘！！

最近话少。习惯一个人。无聊时还是拍些小片片。今天拍了她。

 

很久以前。渊离开嘚时候。把它送给我。

多少个日夜，终于开口对嗳之神说：

“是否将鉨放在枕边，就真能挽回他的嗳？
﹎但茹輠說硪啲愛情．.．．
　　 怼他涞說只惿「潞薖」
繼續又哊什么意义？”

 

翻看很久以前的《非音乐》，主题“不再毕业”。狂嗳里面收录的k.d.lang的《barefoot》和azure ray的《safe and sound》。。

拍下伍稀饭嘚话！

一个星期没有新片片出来了，相机借给了小菜同志。。说到我的相机，只能形容成是对支持国货运动做出的一点点的牺牲。还好，只是一点点！

在电脑里翻看以前的一些片片，有一张片片是在民众乐园向天空张望拍的，拍得很清晰，可今天我想还是让它模糊起来吧，这才像正真的我眼中的世界。这里我一年路过不下700次，可还是第一次抬头看它顶上的天空。如此陌生。像我从未到过这里一样。。